When you’re a stay at home mom of 3, you don’t get much “me” time. In fact, you don’t get any. A stay at home mom is basically a hot dog cooking, butt-wiping, game creating, Netflix navigating, tantrum dodging maid. There’s nothing more exhausting or life-sucking. There have been many times over the last 5 years that I’ve longed for some tasks outside my home, to feel needed to accomplish some tangible goals. But when I stop and think about it, I know my purpose is so delicately important right where I am. I am needed more desperately at home with my children than anywhere else. Not only am I the one meeting ALL their physical needs, I am daily cultivating hearts and minds, creating little people who know the value of kindness, patience, gentleness, and service; little people who also understand the consequences when we choose to act without them.
I’m certainly not the perfect model of mercy, grace, and love for my kids (I yell. A lot.), but I strive to point them to the one who is. They know I don’t wish for them to please me, but Him. If creating Jesus-following, kindness-spreading disciples isn’t important work, I don’t know what is.
One of the great things I’ve been able to keep doing as a stay at home mom is help lead worship at our church. I’ve been a musician since childhood, singing all my life. I even have a degree in musical theater (cue the jazz hands!), so being able to use the gifts I’ve been given, even in this season of life, has been so meaningful for me, and has given me a tangible opportunity to make God known. I love hearing that I was able to help usher the spirit to somebody, or that I have modeled a passion for worshipping Jesus without holding back.
I know the season I’m in will change. One day I will look back and wonder how it could have gone by so fast. But what a comfort to know that God doesn’t need me for any of it, he has just chosen me to be another outlet for His glory.